I
am very aware that my diet is what is holding me back from being a healthier
version of myself. Notice I don't say
skinny, I've never really had the desire to be a stick, but I would love to be
healthier, a bit more toned, and a better runner and I know that my diet holds
me back a lot. However, I love food and
I refuse to give up all my favorite things because then I would be
miserable. So last night when watching Glee with T and she picked up delicious cupcakes to celebrate another friend's new job, of course I had one. However, I had eaten less and we had run 4
miles before in preparation. So while I know
I would be in better shape and more toned if I didn't do stuff like that I am
not willing to give it up. Because let's
be real, if T had eaten one and I had choosen to restrain and be healthy I would
have given her the nastiest looks the entire time (not on purpose, out of
jealously) and been craving one like a fiend.
What
bugs me though are days like today. I
was close to, not over, my calories yesterday so today I was planning on being
under to help balance things out. Well I
have eaten healthy foods all day, no big splurges or sweets, and for some reason
I am starving! I have days like this
probably 1 or 2 times a week, where no matter how much I eat I never feel full. I usually aim for about 1,600 calories a day
because any less than that and you wouldn't want to be around the unhappy,
hungry person I would become, and because I generally exercise enough to work
it off. However, on days like today I
consume 2,000-2,400 calories of normal healthy food, not junk, and am still
ravenous no matter what. It is days like
today when I watch Man vs. Food and
instead of thinking "Gross" I think "I could definitely eat at
least 3 of those burgers, maybe 4 or 5. That
guys is a pansy!" These days are
the ones that upset me the most because I am trying to eat the right thing, not
trying to have any treats or splurges, and I am just soooooo HUNGRY. Very frustrating. Wish I knew how to make this stop. I've tried drinking lots more water, but so
far, no luck. Ideas?
On
a side note-
I feel like an
anthropologist studying a wild animal species. However, it's my roommate, the
laziest, smelliest, most disgusting man ever! For 7 months he has done nothing
but eat massive amounts of junk food, sleep, play video games, smell awful, and
create huge messes.
I've now started to leave little challenges. Like he used the last of the paper towel roll and I decided not to throw it away and get out one of the many new rolls for him in order to see how long it would take him to do it. After over a week no such luck, but he used about 100 napkins today while I was gone at work instead of getting the one paper towel roll out.
I've now started to leave little challenges. Like he used the last of the paper towel roll and I decided not to throw it away and get out one of the many new rolls for him in order to see how long it would take him to do it. After over a week no such luck, but he used about 100 napkins today while I was gone at work instead of getting the one paper towel roll out.
I came home and thought, "Holy
Crap my crazy cat peed on the floor." Which she never does so I was
shocked and mad. After sniffing around for 30 minutes trying to find it I
realized it wasn't Harlee there wasn't anything anywhere. It is just him. He smells so bad the entire
condo stinks! So bad I spent 30 minutes smelling everything for cat pee!
